Capital punishment

I fail to understand the fuss about the capital word.  I can believe it to make an Earth shattering difference in school but do professionals need to read the rightly capitalised words to get the Context right. I mean did you notice the capital E in earth and capital C in context in my last sentence.  You got the context, all right.

I just saw the tag line of L&T with a 'I can't say wrong' capital letter I in 'its about Imagineering' and started wondering why the capital I. Maybe they want to highlight the new word or just cause they Wanted to.

Lord,  save me from losing sanity over capitalisation and rather be more creatively focused.

Why?

So I can't be more convinced with Simon Sinek's 'why' theory.  It is amazing to see people who are brilliant at execution to be unsure about the reason for the execution. There seems to be a fear of looking for the why.

In fact, I feel asking yourself 'why' can really help you understand why are you doing what you are doing,  make a headway to what you ultimately want to do and get a closer look at your motivators. 

Questions that make you seek 'why' challenge your comfort zone, which is why most of us refrain from it. So if I were to ask you what's your job or how do you go about doing what you do, you probably have the best explanation. But if I were to ask you why do you do what you do, you probably will falter and give vague responses like for money or to keep yourself busy.

Think about why. Answer the why for a purpose in everyday chores and long term objectives.

I feel...

As I feel the wind stroking my hair,
I feel it say that all is just fine,
I close my eyes to experience peace,
Groomed hair flows to a carefree tune,
The tune of the silent wind.

As I feel a comforting cool,
I feel it say that all is just fine,
I smell the sweetest scent,
Expensive perfume lost to the fragrance,
The fragrance of nothingness.

I feel my awakened senses,
I feel my existence,
And I wonder hard,
Should I just feel grateful for what I feel,
Or remember and not forget to feel the pain.

Journey outside for a journey within

I feel I now know why we need to take holidays.

The metro cities force us to live and work in enclosed and stifling burrows. Each day we have a false sense of delight looking at how luxurious our burrow is or the growing number of amenities which we surround ourselves with. Once out of the burrows, we struggle through traffic laden roads to get to our air tight work places. And then we revel in competing in the number of fancy feeding places we’ve been to. The façade goes on, goes on till you go somewhere near nature.

If you look closely at the vast hills, exotic greens or expansive waters, close your eyes and think...it is humbling. In spite of their magnanimity and greatness, there always is a welcoming sense that is waiting to embrace you. And you are suddenly hit with a mortifying feeling of being such a small and insignificant part of the entire cosmos. As you intently listen to the absolute silence, it sounds sweet and awakening. As you breathe the untainted air, it seems to cleanse you of all the imaginary ploys. The ploys, which you convince yourself, make you proud and so elated.

So try to make as many trips for that journey within and to reboot yourself to modesty.  

My Confession

I have to confess. Not that it is any surprise but yes I have the deepest, warmest and most sensual relation with someone. It’s been years now and people who are even little more than acquaintances know of my unabashed love. 

I am not sure when or how did the affair start but as far as I remember I’ve always been the helpless lover. Maybe it started on a chilly winter morning when all I was seeking was some snuggling warmth or perhaps on a rainy day I was watching the tender drops trying to heal the heat struck bruised surroundings and there I fell for the intoxicating scent that filled my senses.

So much in love, I have written verses and constantly, in my writings, made references about the mystical effect of this love. 

I just have to close my eyes to feel the smooth texture, the warming effect that seems to melt you into a different world, alluring blend and the tantalizing aroma. Even though I detest PDA, I have no qualms of exhibiting my obsession for this beloved. 

I have even shared my beloved. And whom I shared my beloved with, almost every day, I am confident that they are equally addicted and in love with my beloved.

My beloved and I date often; my favorite place being Costa. Making me lose all hunger, I want to spend as much time savoring each moment as I sip into my age old yet growing love, love for my dearest cup of coffee.   

The connect

I’ve dreamt of spirits. Evil spirits. Not just once but many a times. And these dreams are so unblurred in my memories. 

As far as I remember it has been over 10 years when I first dreamt of an evil spirit. It took control of me, complete control. What followed in real life was a very difficult time, the brunt of which even my mom had to suffer. After a few years it was the evil spirit again but this time I combatted it. Might sound as if influenced by some Ramsay horror movie but I combatted it with a spiritual connect as I fought it from inside a temple. The evil spirit tried really hard to get at me but I was safely snuggled inside a Ram temple constantly chanting god’s name. I was not scared but confident that I am safe. And finally the spirit gave up. 

Recently the evil spirit tried again. This time it was trying very hard to snatch something from me. And I was chanting ‘wahe guru’. I was chanting so fiercely and loudly that I felt I might have spoken in my sleep too. After some frustrated attempts, the spirit went away. 

I am sure this experience is not unique. Others have experienced it too. 

But I am very grateful for the connect. Call me superstitious but I do believe that I have premonition with dreams of these spirits. But as long as I have the connect, I have the confidence of remaining safe and nothing malevolent touching me or the ones I love. I remain protected.

AAP, a glint of Hope

I have never written about politics. With the Indian politics specially being a labyrinth of bureaucracy, corruption, power game and Gandhinism, I have stayed away from writing about it. Every person of this country either has an opinion or doesn't care or is uneducated and ignorant. Media channels are biased towards one or the other political party. And the choice we really seem to have in the name of democracy is to choose, every few years, a party we deem less corrupt than the other. While we continue to be aware that things will never change drastically, population will go on to explode, the infrastructure will worsen and unrest will continue to grow, we still hope for a little better somewhere.

The Delhi elections faced quite a bustle this time because of AAP.  Not sure what did the Aam admi party do so right but they did connect with the people somewhere (and the result say that clearly). They have tall claims of forming a corruption free government and Lokpal bill being enforced. AAP's young candidates come from crime free backgrounds and claim to be young commoners. They have offered something different from what was being served all these years; the Congress and BJP oldies bashing each other. Tired of the conventional, the Delhiites are ready to risk the reigns in the hands of the inexperienced for a change. During a discussion I was told that my vote for AAP is a complete waste. If they come, they are bound to get corrupt. If they have a Lokpal, it would mean more time and money for the same work now as I would have to bribe the Lokpal too. Just as much as it worried me, it also disheartens me with the number of people who have completely given up hope on this country. 

But all that said, I cling to the smallest hope. And this time AAP actually did seem to offer that tiniest hope. They did not offer a clear strategy or a plan and I don't trust them but stand for the smallest hope which they have given. Perhaps someday this country too, will start moving towards a country, which we dream of in staying.  Someday, I hope.