Dearest Shivansh,
More than a decade ago, I would read this quote from John
Lennon on repeat-"Everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's
not the end." After all these years, the realization dawned that the end
was the beginning of getting pulled into a black hole. Sometimes joyful,
sometimes irked, sometimes in trance, and a lot of times – angry. But all of it
with a complete oblivion of time. I don't want to whine about how quickly a decade
went by with you both– but it undoubtedly saddens me as much as it warms my
heart.
My gulla – you've turned me into a baby as you pull my
cheeks, saying she's so cute yaar. I don't know how Gen Alpha is wired so
differently; you are anything but scared of me. You've turned into a full-blown
entertainer with your funny comebacks and mischievousness. While you're funny, you're
also deeply caring for the people around you. You're a kind soul who observes
everything around you intently and is affected by the small things that
surround you.
I realized something really important this year. Your achievements
matter so much more than whatever I will now ever attain. As you won the first
runner-up in the drawing competition, my heart raced, fluttered, and jumped out
to walk along with you to the stage to pick up the trophy. I’m not sure I've
ever been so proud in my life. I love it when you draw with such undeterred
focus (keeping your tongue out) and have this urge to get better. Keep your
passion going and master the art, my baby.
You're as perceptive as you're sensitive (a little too sensitive).
As a mumma bear, I might have protected and pampered you a little too much. As much
as I hate to admit it, it’s time to leave babydom, my little baby, and it’s
time to get smarter for the big, bad world.
On your 10th birthday, I want to thank God a
million times over. You are blessed to have a sibling to fight with,
grandparents who love you both to bits, and a dad who does everything that fathers
do and more. He’s been like a mom, a nanny, a driver, and a doting dad who never
says no to anything that you ask for. Bua, Siddhi didi and Krishna bhaiya whose love and warmth you feel despite the distance.
Laugh, stay happy, and keep sparkling. My purpose is to always see you smile (and laugh).
Your cute and funny mommy
♥️♥️🧿
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